Illusion Uninitiated
Life after domestic abuse
I look into your eyes and watch the sky evaporate right before mine,
I’m losing myself again and falling out of reality,
The look i see in your eyes reminds me I’m lost and alone
The loneliness isn’t so lonely anymore
The torture no longer feels like pain
The pain no longer makes me feel alive
Being dead has shown me i once had life
For that I smile and embrace it
I don’t feel love
I don’t feel wanted
I don’t feel a thing
I don’t feel numb
I’m so detached and realize all good is a cruel joke being played on me,
The second i began to accept the happiness,
That’s when it all begins to crash down
The stage is torn apart
I can only blame myself for being distraught
When i continue to see the lies for what they are,
The destruction stays away
Maybe i want to live in this illusion of truth and happiness until I die
The mental breakdowns
The heartbreaks
The headaches
The illusion protects me from them
Maybe everything is as good as it seems
I’m just paranoid
I just hate myself
I don’t want to believe it but I deserve the bad things
I deserve the suffering
I don’t understand why I don’t deserve it
The tears want to escape from my behind my eyes
They can’t be free
All of me has to suffer
Says my reflection to me
When i see that i’m drowning
About the Creator
Goddess Cuervo
I love writing and expressing myself in artistic ways with words....This reality is not only in my head.. 🖤🕷️..
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