If Only There Were No Ifs

Is it easy, do you think, to work where love has faded?

To thicken the veil behind which my honesty is paraded,

To no longer feel the thrill of a new dawn breaking,

Feeling respected no more, my spirit slowly aching...

I know, and so do they, aware of this game we play,

This knowledge pushes me further into dismay,

Each morning I rise, to their faces, I smile,

Pretending to love this, mile after mile.

Tired of this act, wishing I wasn't here,

Wishing for courage, free from all fear,

If only responsibilities didn't bind me so tight,

If only there were no ifs, maybe then I might...

Chase the light in the darkness, searching for a spark,

Hoping one day I'll find the way out of the dark,

Maybe then I'll muster the courage, at last,

To carve a new path, free from the shadows cast.