If I were to die today

I would thank the teachers that never gave up on me .

I would tell everyone who abused me,thank you for setting me free.

I would thank all the family members that never turned their back .

Even when my life wasn’t on track .

I would like to think all the family’s members who couldn’t help our uncle was sick .

God sent me,that was a trick.

I would like to thank my uncle Jessie for the conversations we had.

You were very I’ll but the convo wasn’t sad.

I would thank Mrs.Blaze for telling me I’ll never find a Christian man .

I would thank the non-religious lady for telling me I can .

I would thank my best-friend Cedric for always doing the best he can and Sam as well.

I know I’m a difficult woman they could tell .

I would thank HoneyBear and Chubbybear for being such great guys to me.

They could really see the potential in me .

I would like thank Christian for being my favorite ginger snack and put me back on track.,

Even though our relationship was wack.

I would like say thank you to Joe for being a caring guy and being stern and funny to me.

You were one of a kind darling .

I would thank Ms.Diane for taking me home almost every night.

And remind to pray ,and everything will be alright .

I would like to thank my Chaturbate fans for loving my body.

You guys got to see me secretly naked and naughty .

I would like to thank all my little cousins for loving me,I know you’d miss me dearly .

I would thank the doctors at Vanderbilt Psych for never calling me weird or dumb.

Thank you psychologist for the meds that kept me stable .

I would like to thank the people who said I’m able .

I would like to thank the people on Facebook and Snapchat for always checking on me.

It really means a lot to me.

I would like to thank whisper and vent app for giving me a place to vent anonymously.

You guys knew some things about me.

I would like to think all the jobs for rejecting me.

I’ll have greater blessings you’ll see .

I would like to thank my father for degrading me,

I still didn’t realize you loved me.

I would like to thank my grandpa for saying I’m not in the right frame of thought.

When I wasn’t really taught.

I would thank all my Uber drivers for the therapy rides.

You guys knew more of my sad sides .

I would like to thank my sister for giving me the best niece and nephew.

Even though I couldn’t see them because of you.

I would like to thank my gynecologist for telling she would quit if I had a baby .

Just because she thought I’d kill it,wow that’s shady .

Thank you to the people I’ve met in psych over the years.

You guys knew me faster then my peers .

I would like to thank nurse John for believing in me and listening to me.

Lastly I would like to thank Amethyst for debilitating me.

And now that I’m not dying.

Thank God ,I’m alive and breathing .