It started when I was younger when I use to do great things.
And I didn’t get rewarded even though I accepted all the family brings.
I learned to write in cursive to forge my dads signature just to get through elementary school.
I know it was wrong but I was a clever fool.
If I did something bad it was expected.
But I thought at least I would feel accepted.
When i was a teen I was told I’d be like my mother.
And no one paid attention .
Not a little praise or mention.
When they thought I was promiscuous and sneaky .
They didn’t look at me freaky .
But that was an abuse story that I refused to be leaky .
I babysit and wrote poetry .
But no one cared about my voice then,
So why should I share my story.
Time went by and I’ve got the hang of life.
Cooking for my family,
Teased for being a mini housewife.
I went to school and tried ti make good grades.
I was struggle mentally from all the verbal degrades.
By the time I got my first job I didn’t look back.
No one praised me then ,but their hands were out faster than cars on a race track .
Then I lost my job and their hands fell.
I’ve hit rock bottom and I began to dwell.
Later that year I got a new job and I got my independence again.
I was so veils with joy but here comes the hands again.
I got my first apartment and I was doing so well.
But only one person was happy for me and I don’t know if I could really tell.
I write killer poetry and adulting.
All I get is praise from being like my mother or just adjusting .
For many years I just wish I could get a “keep up the good work” “I’m proud of you”you’re doing a great job.
My tears are burning my 25yr old cheeks as I sob.
Am I not worthy or great things?
Why does God or people give it to others but not me.
And it fucking stings .
I’m sitting here crying like a poor kid for acceptance from a world who would care less.
But a wise person told me you’re not here to impress.
You’re your own motivation and you should have ambition for yourself.
Even if you’re a small book in life on 5 story world bookshelf .
I don’t think it was good how I was raised
But you can do all the good in the world and never get accepted or praised.
About the Creator
PoeticallyPurple24
I’m told I have a natural gift so let’s see how meaningful it really is !🥰
I used writing as a coping mechanism to get me through hardships in life .My goal is to become a poet that will change the world .I hope you can see my gift shine .
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