If I Could...
I would erase everything that has ever hurt you
If I could, I would have talked to you today.
Just to hear your voice
And to let you know I worry about the hard things you're going through
Not to pry or offer unsolicited advice.
Just a wish that I might hear a hint of joy
You deserve joy you know.
And I suppose to hear friendliness in your voice.
To find relief that you aren't mad at me any more.
I won't even bring up that I don't understand why you were mad at me.
I'll just accept that you were and that your feelings are real and you have a right to them.
Your birthday is coming.
I have no way to tell you happy birthday where you will see it or hear it.
I have no direct connection to you anymore
It's almost as though I died in your life.
But that sounds too final.
Someday surely we'll get past whatever is wrong.
That somewhere inside of you is a seed of love for me?
A seed that although hard and dry now, with the right conditions, it might grow again ?
I face each day with that hope.
I know you are just short of 30 but I still remember when you were 3.
Your smiles were big and the world hadn't slammed down on you yet.
Just know, if I could, I would erase everything that has ever hurt you, whether by me or others,
So you could live life joyfully like the 3 year old you once were.
I love you always.
About the Creator
Pam Reeder
Stifled wordsmith re-embracing my creativity. I like to write stories that tap into raw human emotions.
Author of "Bristow Spirits on Route 66", magazine articles, four books under a pen name, technical writing, stories for my grandkids.
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