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If I Can Dream

My first familial loss, the realization that life moves on, and I am not actually an invincible protagonist.

By V. B. BPublished about a year ago 1 min read
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A Golf Course where my Papa's Celebration of Life was held. Photo Creds: Me.

It still runs over in her mind,

a pinwheel of fragmented moments.

A fall,

a phone call,

a hush,

a broken heart-

ed scream.

Tubes haphazardly slithered

from the gaping abyss of his mouth,

a terrible irony to his claustrophobic tendencies.

Patches of blood smeared on the floor

like a macabre quilt of desperation,

“I can’t live without you”

the beeping slowed,

the numbers dropped,

the tears descended

and he died.

He had bought little fishing nets,

for his trip to the cabin,

a family vacation with the grandkids,

the beginning of his retirement,

a few chapters away

from finalizing his latest novel,

painting wooden carvings of the kids,

finishing Murdoch Mysteries,

a fifty-year wedding anniversary.

A man with a million more dreams,

a million more memories waiting to be made.

We surrounded the hospital bed,

clutched, kissed, said goodbye.

Watched as his skin yellowed,

his face relaxed,

he looked small in that thin hospital blanket,

as he slipped away to somewhere

we wished to follow.

But it still runs over in her mind,

an album of marvelous memories

an Elvis duet,

a Roman history lesson,

a goofy expression,

a bed of sunflowers,

a ride on the lawn mower,

a bowl of extra cheesy macaroni,

a paint-stained shirt,

a full-bodied laugh,

the best man I ever knew.

2022 - Braaten

sad poetry
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About the Creator

V. B. B

I'm a pessimistic amateur poet and writer that has had a few violent and dark things published. Also, I love to make lists of my favourite movies, t.v. shows, books, and music.

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