I:
I tried to smile today
I found it wasn't there
sifting through the rubble
of a vacant stare
I pushed at the corners
of my lips
my expression was bare
a darkness under frown
I bound myself
to feel something more
I watched
a part of me die away
to become more like inside
The numbness taking hold
as my hand grew cold
and could not feel my tears
I slowly shivered
as I took the bind away
and let my reflection play
over and old serrated friend
I pressed it to my skin
on old reminders
of what I am
a brief moment
I was warm
but nothing lasts for long
I took a pill today
like so many pills before
promising so many scores
from sleep to happiness
a bottle for it all
and found I needed more
washed it down with a drink
like before
If I should wake tomorrow
which I likely will
further failing
my only talent sure
My jolly Christmas spirit
left behind in some
long ago holiday lore
something for a child
and nothing more
left behind
many years ago
on a scene of red snow
screaming and silence
caskets and sleeping
running into a winters cold
I sat in the dark today
had a small meal
no voice to be heard
not even my own
my only wish
for this year
like many years passed
is to slumber away
to slip from existence
to return
all the seconds of breath
to let them go
to something worth it
like a squirrel or a bat
I sat alone today
and said it's ok
everything is fine
just another normal day
a remnant
salt on it's wounds
a lump of carbon
in a cluttered room
I felt my soul drown today
though it left me years ago
Some day I'll go
visit an old willow
with boughs
full of snow
and there I will rest
in a place only
thorns and shadows know.
I shall go when I sleep
shall dig deep
to the roots
there I shall rest
forgotten at best
Iwrote something today
left old wounds open
For all to see
Kaloriinn, James. Mason
. . . Edited from original format, to meet standard
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