i will

you said

enjoy your life

but i think you meant

fuck you.

i couldn’t be your happy ever after

and i will enjoy my life

being the woman

you can never have

because your insecurity

didn’t think you could.

i will drink my coffee in the morning

black, like ever day

and drown my longing for you

in the waves of the ocean

and the stars in the sky

so i can never find it.

i am not a fantasy.

i am human and broken

and you cut your hands

on my edges

like i knew you would.

i will read my books

and listen to the rain

and light burned candles

just like you told me to.

i just hope you believe in yourself one day

like i did.