I want to be

I want to be

I want to be wise and be one who has wisdom, I just don't know how. I sit alone as the wise do yet it gets me no where, I know they think but what do they think about, do they think about trees and water, I'll never know.

I have taken wise trips to places yet came back the same,is there​ a trick to it or not, for I want to know but I don't know how.

I have done riddles till my brain bled out, yet knowledge became dust in my hands, I want to grow I just don't know how, seems I have traveled the seven ages of men and came back the same, ohhh what is wrong with me, I want to know but I don't know how, am I resistant to change or change is to me, I want to be a god, I don't​ know how.

I have felt the power of being a god and immortality yet couldn't hold on to it, the pleasure I couldn't grasp, I want to be but I don't know how,

Mhhhmmm yah...so sad, I have travelled through space and time yet I couldn't stay, the things I know do they deem me wise, a god and immortal,

I want to know but I don't know how.

Dear gentlemen of the East do you dare tell me how or maybe I should just sob myself till my heart is swept away by the pains of wonder.