I stapled my wings to the earth

I stapled my wings to the earth,

now I am just waiting to die,

reader discretion advised.

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I thought I made the right choice all those years ago,

but it seems like it was just a lie

I told myself.

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I've made it my life motto

to live with no regrets,

and so I shall not,

I shall not look behind me

for I have already reflected, pondered, and taken steps back

for the majority of my time.

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It used to be where decisions were easy

and all I needed to do was to follow instructions,

but I can't be a sheep,

Not If I Want To Lead,

Not If There Are Many I Still Need to Protect.

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I could've flown away,

I could've left everything behind,

I could've lived just for myself,

but that was not in my nature.

That STILL is not my nature.

Would've, could've, should've;

those are the words that always plague my mind,

but I still would not do anything differently

for I was able to create good memories

with the ones that I love,

and outsiders looking inside would just not understand,

so I pay them no mind.

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I stapled my wings to the earth,

crippling my ability to see far and wide, beyond the horizon,

but that was my choice and I stand by my decision.

I am a mere mortal now, living day by day,

not knowing what the far future brings,

with each passing day,

I feel like I am losing more of my sight.

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The gifts I gave to my loved ones,

I hope they treasure and use it well,

I am changed, but I am me, I am still me,

and all you ever see is the me in the past.

You've been with me too long, you can't see me for being anything else,

not that I blame you,

my journey is long and arduous,

you cannot possibly follow my journey as I have followed yours,

I would not expect this of you.

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No one asked me to sacrifice,

no one knows of my sacrifice if you can even call it that,

and I ask for no one's acknowledgement.

I do not ask for your understanding though I want it,

I just ask for your patience although I know you might not give it.

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This life that I have created for myself, for my loved ones and others,

I stand and have no regrets although I severely miss the time I spent

with the ones who truly loved me unconditionally and radiated like

the sun and moon combined.

I am just going about my normal day to days

but I am just waiting for the day I can finally reunite,

free from mortal troubles, pain, and suffering,

death does not scare me but for my loved ones I will not seek for it;

however, when it does finally come for me,

I will happily embrace it, welcome it, to take me on the ultimate adventure,

and where I can finally remove the staples from my wings

and soar above the clouds.