I See A Bit of Sunshine

I finally let it all out.

All the tears, all the sadness

That I have kept inside.

I told you I'm done

I cannot take anymore pain

I can no longer bottle it all up

You listened. Patiently.

You told me you love me

But I told you the hard truth that I've been hiding...

That I don't feel like I love myself lately.

That I don't feel like I have a reason to live anymore.

You kept quiet.

Then you got angry.

Because you feel so much for me

You know you're better than this,

You said.

I know.

But I'm tired.

I'm tired of being better for everyone else

But not enough for me.

I told you everything.

In the end, you held me.

The hold that I've been wanting for so long.

You reminded me again that there were options

That ending it wasn't the only choice.

That we could work together,

Save ourselves.

Still be kind to everyone

Without hurting ourselves.

I'm not telling you to be selfish,

Because that's not you.

But I'm reminding you to care for yourself,

Because I know you don't do that.

And you're right.

But I need help, still.

I need you to constantly remind me of this.

Please.

Because I tend to forget

And drown in the voices

That my own head creates

When I don't have yours to turn to.

Thank you.