I pray for the day
when goosebumps and blue lips
don’t remind me of winning
anymore
and innocent bruises
don’t remind me of trophies
I collected from crumbling blood cells
and stomach cramps
don’t taste like cinnamon
and hunger pangs, my drug of choice,
does not tease me in the mornings.
Once she lurked
in the dizzy spells
when I stood
I kept them in a little jar
in buckling knees
I kissed them good morning
and hair spilling like glitter
on bathroom tiles
I still have them in my pockets
And I pray
that every moment makes me forget
the high of being so low
of my flings with the Angel of death
my first kiss
Because as hard as I try
to put myself together
I see health as failure
and a steady gait as defeat
and multivitamins still smell like a ruse.
I don’t want to be sick anymore
But i miss being a puppet
held by sturdy strings
and I miss eating my worries
for dessert
But I pray for the day
that goosebumps aren’t trophies anymore.
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