I need to write this before the words slip away completely
on navigating a CIRS diagnosis in real-time
I need to write this before the words slip away completely...
Maybe one day
I'll go back and jigsaw the
pieces of my brain
caught up in this web here
I need to write this before the words slip away...
They say the mold changes
(has changed?)
my brain
I need to write this before the words slip...
Through fingers that forgot
to turn off the stove
today
I need to write this before the words...
Forgot the word "deck" today
but remembered how to spell
"pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis"
(ironcially, this is not my diagnosis)
I need to write this before the...
Hair on my head
continues to thin
I need to write this before...
My first
re-exposure
happened last
weekend
I need to write this...
You will read these words
And wonder if I've lost my mind
(I haven't - am just sharing it with mycotoxins at the moment)
I need to write...
To re-member (to forget)
what the mold destroyed
I need to...
Rest
I need...
Help
I...
Completely away slip words the before this write to need I...
am exhausted
Away slip words the before this write to need I...
am relieved
Slip words before this write to need I...
am angry
Words before this write to need I...
am learning
Before this write to need I...
am scared
This write to need I...
am hopeful
Write to need I...
am dying
To need I...
am living
Need I...
am letting go of everything I thought I knew
I...
am exactly where I need to be
Helpful resources to understand Chronic Inflammatory Response Syndrome (CIRS) and biotoxin illness, as well as my own journey, are listed below:
List of Doctors certified in the Shoemaker protocol (diagnosing and treating CIRS/biotoxin illness)
9 Ways to Help a Victim of Toxic Mold
(note: I am not a medical professional nor am I a mold expert, though I am quickly learning much more than I ever wanted to know about mold. The above poetic spew is from my own moldy brain and is my way of processing what is happening to my body, and what has progressed/degenerated slowly over time with little to no explanation until now).
About the Creator
Sur Ren Dirt (she/they)
Write now I'm plaaaying with words.
And also, I need a little support: https://www.caringbridge.org/visit/rendirt
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