I'm going to be blunt with you
((This is a Poem About Autism))
You’re nine years old and your mother is crying in a doctor’s office
At the top of a tower that must be in the clouds
She’s not sad, she says (insists)
But why would she cry if she’s not?
It doesn’t bother you much
It bothers you that she says you only have two friends
When actually you have three
And you don’t know how to talk to them
You go back to school, tell your two friends
(because the third is only six)
That you went to see the doctor for your head
And that you’re actually, medically mad
And all in all?
You’re rather pleased about it
You’re twelve years old and you’re sitting in the school library
Feeling very grown up
And your new friend is holding a medical journal
Heavy as a brick
You don’t understand yet that this is weird
What you do know is weird, though, is you.
And you say
“I can look myself up”
Because nobody’s told you anything more than “special” and “different”
You’ve had to call yourself weird to fill in the gaps
And the book tells you about yourself
The book says, “severely emotionally disturbed”
And you can’t help but laugh
You’re twenty one and so much has happened
your mum thinks that maybe the doctor got it wrong
But you both know that’s not true
And people say to you,
“Wow I couldn’t even tell!”
As if it’s a compliment
And you’re standing in the kitchen with your friend
Talking about school (how terrible it was)
And she says
“It wasn’t exactly a well kept secret”
And you’re hurt that she thought it was a secret at all
You’re twenty one and you’re sitting in a room full of people
Spilling their hearts out
And you think to yourself
“I’ve never heard a poem about autism”
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