I Lost You

Staring off into the distance

I remember how you used to hold me

The way you smiled made me blush

And filled me with fear of losing you

I never envisioned a future with you in it

Instead I imagined how we fell apart

How you broke my heart

So I picked and found ways to push you away

I was so afraid of losing you that I left you first

I saw your smile fade from my life

Your arms no longer warmed me in the cold

Every night I cried and prayed you'd come back

Tears that reverberated in the silence

You fought to keep me, but I said no

I'm tortured by my response to your love

Realizing I designed my loneliness

Leaves me only feeling more lonely.