I'll Never Be Ready to Say Goodbye
Thankful for the Extra Years With My Cat
Rosemary, basil, and lemon muffins
with a lavender latte with whipped cream:
my decadent treats to start the morning.
My old gray cat nestles under my arm;
he sleeps as I drink my latte and watch
the ripples and waves of the blue-green lake.
The wind rustles the branches and green leaves.
Young sunflowers turn to face the bright sun.
Heliotropism: when flowers seek out
the sun, and if they can't find it, they face
each other. They'll look for the brightest source.
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I rub behind my cat's ears; his eyes close.
The cat came into my life years ago.
Ten years to be exact. I almost lost
him last year when out of the blue he had
a urinary blockage. He spent days
at the vet's office when he was sickly.
At first, they thought it was stress, so they gave
him drugs to relax him, but this didn't work.
Then they put my cat on a catheter
to empty his very full bladder. But
this did not solve his issue, so he was
put on a second catheter, and it
did not work either. X-rays revealed bad
news: he had tiny stones in his bladder.
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The emergency vet took care of him
over the weekend. My husband and I
would call the receptionist so we could
leave messages for our cat. We missed him
greatly while he was given care. We love
him because he is our comfort, our kid
when we have none, our sunshine after rain,
and our joyful greeter in the morning.
His surgery was on Monday; it was
successful. He spent weeks in the bathroom
recovering. I hand-fed him his pills,
I gave him new bedding every morning—
he would make a mess in the bathroom since
he struggled to get in his litter box
with a cone on his head. He'd jump into
the box and scoop the litter with the cone
flinging it everywhere. I'd escort him
to our master shower, while I cleaned his
bathroom with a shop vac. Every little
clump would get sucked up, I would wash and dry
surfaces, then I'd put fresh clean towels
on the floor. I would lead him from the hall
to his bathroom where he'd sleep for the day.
For meals, he received small bowls of wet food.
Between lunch and dinner, I'd visit him.
I would sit in the bathtub, and pet him.
He purred and slept in my lap. I'd tell him
how much I loved him. I cried that whole month.
I cried while playing Enya in my car—
I played Enya on the way to the vet.
I prayed and cried during his surgery.
I felt bad while he stayed in the bathroom
to recover. His medicine schedule
was at odd hours: I gave him medicines
at 6:00AM, 10:00AM, 6:00PM,
and 2:00AM. It was a rough schedule.
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I didn't care how much it'd cost to save him.
His vet bills cost me thousands of dollars.
I'm happy he made a recovery.
He often finds me sitting in a chair;
he'll invite himself to sit on my lap.
He'll purr loudly and stare sweetly at me.
He loves to play with his toys. He'll meow
and meow and meow when he carries,
in his mouth, one of his favored toy mice.
I'll never be ready to say goodbye.
About the Creator
Andrea Lawrence
Freelance writer. Undergrad in Digital Film and Mass Media. Master's in English Creative Writing. Spent six years working as a journalist. Owns one dog and two cats.
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