I Fear

The pain radiates through my back and shoots out of my eyes.

The sting of the metal hits my lids, they squeeze shut trying

to keep the weight within.

The chains that rattle over my spine keep me hunched forward

in the dark climate of a room. It's midnight - I can't breathe

whilst the door slams shut and my brain explodes.

The aura grows like an animal raised in the wild and caged

before it can bite. Before it can run.

The hellfire drains into my coffee cup whilst the wind

pushes the garbage across the street outside my window.

And I can't feel my fingertips as the dawn breaks a migraine

and the coffee depletes.

I'm left alone watching the breeze.

The anger that pulsates behind my eyes may never be let loose,

but when it does...I fear.

I fear.

For what will it take to push me over that cliff, sent stumbling into the black hole whilst resistance is not only futile,

it becomes impossible.

Yes, I fear.