i don’t think you see me

When I’m lying right beside you

And you’re holding my legs

So close to your chest

And the silent tears

Run down on your pillow

When you turn on the TV

And watch this comedian

Who thinks what happened

to me

Is a joke

And you laugh

When I get in the shower

That you never bought a curtain for

And the weight of the water

Makes it unbearable to stand-

Pointless to shampoo

When I take off my shirt

And the lines on my tummy

Reveal themselves

You’d rather work around them

Then tend to the scars

When I tell you

It is actually not fine

I know what comes next

And I beg you to listen

But you just go to bed