I am the Problem
Advocating for women's pleasure, but being part the reason there is a problem.
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I Am the Problem
I raise my voice to women's equality,
shout out the rights for woman's pleasure,
but who I am to say anything,
when I am the problem,
Because when he claims his desires,
I lower my concerns to please him,
its easier then carrying the guilt of not providing,
I tease him with his desired intentions,
knowing he will act upon them,
I am the problem,
He is persistent, but respectful,
Never forceful,
As I am to myself,
I silence my pain and express it as pleasure,
I hide my discomfort for his satisfaction,
I am the problem,
I crumble over if he wants me or the act,
Am I just the person there who can give him that,
but I never speak of my fear,
I just let myself lay here,
I want to say I did it for him,
without admitting I didn't want it,
but instead,
I make jokes, take the kisses, ignore the loneliness,
I Smile at him, and move on,
I am the problem,
I lower my needs,
To please,
Instead of speaking my truth,
Its just easier, even if it hurts,
and I care about his wants,
but the regret that follows is what haunts,
my inner self from feeling whole,
I am the problem from the making of my own,
But as long as I can keep him from knowing,
Then I will find a way to keep going,
Because I don't want to be identified as unamused,
so I let myself lay there to be used,
I do believe in woman pleasure,
As I am one to usually claim it,
but sometimes,
I fail and become the problem within it.
About the Creator
Rilee Arey
I am a professional life romantizer, with a heart that feels everything deeply. I am a moment collector through words and the ways around us.
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