They say home is where the heart is
Whatever you can't simply dismiss
As something you could do without.
Whatever makes you want to shout
And scream to the rooftops.
Whatever you can't just STOP...
My home...I'm not sure what that means
Because whenever it seems
Like I've finally found it,
Life throws me around
For a loop, or into another universe entirely
To a point where I can't see at all
Who I'm supposed to be.
And I've come to slowly surmise
That Home is just a state of mind.
When thoughts flow and creativity weaves
In and out of the eaves
In my mind.
A sense of security deep inside
That I alone can wholly provide.
A moment where I finally feel like I can breathe
And again see the beauty in everything.
The rush of crisp morning air in my lungs
Like the song of life being sung
The whisper of the breeze saying to me,
“We’re alive. You’ve made it, don’t you see?”
When I know that I'm good.
At what I do
At life
At being me…
In my eyes, I think this will always be true
In my brain it’s a light you can’t unscrew:
Home is belonging
Home is control
Home is self-acceptance
Home is...Me.
But not the Me most of the outside world sees...
It’s the Me that struggles for every breath
And hopes I survive 'til a natural death.
The Me that has come so far
The Me that still tries infinitely hard.
The Me that I find difficult to talk about
The Me I know I wouldn’t be me without.
The Me that has grown so much these past few years
The Me that is still fighting even through my tears.
The Me that knows there are better days ahead
And the Me who acknowledges the turmoil in my head.
The Me that no matter how unappealing and torn
Is a Me that will always be worn.
But that Me is so much more than its flaws
It’s beautiful, strong, and worth the applause
That I’m starting to allow myself to extend
In learning that all of Me is really my friend.
Some may think that these things should be put high on a shelf,
But I’ve realized that Home is my sense of Self.
About the Creator
V. N. Roesbon
I have dreamt of being a writer since a young age. In my teenage years I also came to love photography. I typically take pictures of clouds and write poems, but so far I am really enjoying creating for challenges here on Vocal.
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