I am

I am not scared,

I am not wearing underwear,

I am standing in front of a crowd.

I am thinking of something I can say because,

I am not scared and I would like to express what a natural disaster I am.

I am a blazing fire burning through everything in order to begin again.

I am thinking of myself...

I am thinking of my weird dreams where I am topless in public. Everyone around me doesn't realize I am, only I realize I am. it is weird and uncomfortable I begin to grab at myself before anyone else does,

I am thinking about the universe,

I am thinking of my mistakes, so lost in trying to find reason because I believe I was in places I didn’t belong and got things that I didn’t deserve and somehow I must continue paying for not being strong enough.

I am thinking of a loud BANG, where I am strong enough.

a bang where my body hits the floor, I dive for my limp body, I beat the shit out of myself and the crowd goes wild.

(the crowd being me of course.)

I am thinking of the day I get to forget that I ever existed. I’m going to be a different person in the same body;

I am thinking of rebirth in where I can jump back into myself, a bright orb swallows me whole. I am swimming in the galaxy of myself, how divine this moment feels, swimming in my own love.

I am not scared.