circles and loopholes

I'm standing looking at the world from behind a glass window and the only thing I see between myself and getting out there is my reflection staring back at me.

fear, seems to be the constant theme here.

I find myself running loopholes to find my way out without REALLY finding my way out because the only way out is in and I'm terrified to spend time with myself.

can't stand to look at myself in the mirror and see that sad stranger asking for help again. Screaming at me silently why am I not good enough for you? Each time I'm faced with my own reflection it makes me want to run another loophole cus' I got no good words to reply to myself with.

Maybe if I hide away long enough I'll stop being so desperate for the answer.

Just like fighting fire with fire it only makes the problem worse; fighting fear by being too fearful to do anything about it.

I'm a big tangled mess now; I've tied myself up through so many loops I've bound myself up, tangled all the loose ends into one big knot.

and I know this whole thing sounded like one big metaphor... but maybe that's the point. I keep skirting around instead of saying it straight forward, I keep finding loopholes instead of going straight forward.