HOW I MET MY EX

Like I met my girl when I was 18 years

old and she was just turning 23 I really

loved her from my heart and even though

I don't deserve it I'm I hope she loves

me so I just did this private show I'm

doing a footlocker promo I'm judging from

the post-cold it was showed it to Soho

did six or seven tracks make six or

seven racks a couple days later on

Twitter I saw this for myself and I was

grinning that 4k camera recording you

got me trippin' so I'm checking out who

did it when I stumbled on this girl

and I could tell that she was different

a couple hours late and now I'm liking

all our pictures I ain't finished

attacked her Twitter name into my

install so I could check on every single

little digit why didn't I just message

her trust me I was thinking but I myself

scented rapper too concerned about my

image the truth so when she hit me first

I'm pretty shocked that didn't burn

I'm cooling Josh Jack and Josh who am i

ringing the first man I was so excited and I

replied a minute later that's that bra

the thing that you just let her know excited

too excited no clue on what I should do

exciting so I'm just typing rambling

like a fool excited

and we were talking for hours over some

minor things ignoring everyone else to

her replying quickly his type of chick she

got a spot like you were light and

spliffs you know you like her when

you're thinking about your words she got

me typing and deleting my messages then we

write in the hope that there's a

smile when she's replying to the highlight

of my day and phone calls and a night

it's the little things the girl she had

a vibe and I liked it and she's into

photography she's got a passion for it

and she respects that I'm rapping but

she ain't cat him for it

see that's the perfect balance is

nothing better than a girl with talent

Drive ambition all of the things above

she's showing in abundance I ain't even

met her yet she works around the corner

boy lives just outside of London I in

front and I'm a sweet boy intentions are

in question so my compliments and decoys

if that even makes sense the first time

I met her I was surrounded by my friends

ran depends on some staircase so much

On the first day, I just had a show and I

asked if she could meet me after maybe we

could show you never know where fingers

could bore no problems she down to roll

traveled in the cold so I went across the

road gray hoodie under Rico if I'm

remembering correctly it's always kind

of weird with a person who you were

texting is a person that you're obsessed

with I was one up from the jump I think

she was wearing pumps or vans when I

first met her no it's Eva I ever won

she was looking so attractive I barelysaw skinca she was covered like a

matches my knife English she's the one I

was stuck for 20 seconds trying to give

the girl a hug and all my friends are

drunk so [ __ ] it and bout to kiss her

and

complications and blaming her for the

liquor changing my name on Twitter and

blocking her on my in-store

I saw a skin blush the moment that our

lips touched she pulled my bottom lip

until it stretched and kissed me on my cheek

until she reached around my neck and I was

in mourning like a [ __ ] even though I'm

wearing jeans I had to rearrange my dick

so she doesn't see that I'm a wreck it's

the first time we met got me feeling

like a creep and that strawberry flavor

gave her tongue a kind of sweet little

taste that we could speak about anything

we were friends first I talked her to

At the station I remember cuz we had a

conversation for ages about our dreams

and the things that we hadn't seen and

all that we had intended to do I bet

she's hoping my intentions are true and

his months went by we both got into it

in the intima and I'm a Sperry the details

because both of our parents are probably

listening but really we were into it

into us into this into everything about

each other we were lovers and I loved her

because she knows me and as probably why

she told me you ain't ready for a girl

you're still a little kid that's gettingready for the world and you don't need

that kind of burden but I told her that

I want it and I'm just being honest yes

I know the girls exist but I don't see

them as a problem I'm in every single

word and I ain't gonna lie and say the

MS has been absurd but I do every

single girl this is the weirdest the

positions are usually the girl that's

asking where I'll see a fitting or a

place in her position but I'm telling

her I need it and I don't think she sees

it's so I'm being either sweet or when

we're speaking and we're me and I've got

affectionate messages you can read them

you gotta tell a girl that she's

beautiful till she sees it believes it

understands it more than physically

mentally and the way that I'm feeling I

could talk for 10 years about the

moments that we shared the jokes that we

had run the places that we've been

the music we made together producer next

to my bed, they're making my minor

changes in reference to what she said I

think I started getting tired my

schedules a mess replies to get lazy

and my lady noses crazy but she's there

if I'm in need while I'm at shows

getting tempted by girls who are on

their knees you know I'm only a teen

it's like my highest are

then not as easy as I pictured to give

you all to a woman ignoring all this

attention that's been getting to my headit said to make accessible one message or

text and girls will get in your bed

she's trying to make it happen with four

holes at her events I mentioned it's a

passion for toddler theater thing and I

don't know if it's the pressure where

paper means the passion and the pleasure

we all gotta work to survive so now

she's popping up his shows taking

pictures on her own and at first it

wasn't cool by [ __ ] will let go until

I saw in some rappers' tracksuits I felt

away she told me it was working she was

in some studio taking pictures and I

just sighed some halfway-wannabe rappers

it is federalized are you looking for no

picture I know it's your profession but

read their intentions they ain't payin'

mell photographers to shoot that same

session and I felt so disrespectful

standing on our dreams and crushing them

I just told her it's nothing do what you

need to do if I ain't feeding you in my

opinions all I'm giving when I speak to

you because I don't have the right why

should girls be punished for Mel's

dirty mind

when I think about it now I'm ashamed to

the core I mean how many men spot their

women from achieving what they can

because in secret a been feeling

insecure and I can't handle my emotions

it's probably why I didn't see a talent

when I should have been supporting him

promoting like I didn't have a platform

a voice and a following of everyone I

knew I really could have done a lot of

things to help chase her dream but

instead of me to grow into a person

that she needs acted like I couldn't see

and I don't mean to say it it's like I

don't trust the girl but how can I trust

her if I don't trust myself and even

girls can get tempted by you

how it goes what if she meets a bigger

rapper when she's at a show what if he

sees her backstage what if he sent her

loss what if he's got a bigger car got a

better watch that doesn't bother me she

really ain't material you saw the little

things they do that put the fear in you

what if he actually replies what if he

phones her - what if he's doing all the

things that I'm supposed to do what he's

listening laughing relate and what if he

even cares to ask her how her days have been

what if he's trying to give her

everything she needs an expense from the

one damn person that she's dating he

should have helped her follow a dream

but instead, I hold her back and had her

following me and boy he's got a brave

face and I'll never know

It hurts just as much when you let them

go