how do you avoid trauma bombing on the first date?

You want to know about me?

Where should I start…

My family?

The way I was left in my crib

Crying

Because daddy wanted his child to learn

That crying is

Weakness-

She needs to learn

That no one will listen

When she cries.

What was I like as a kid?

I quickly realized

That I was

A sore thumb

Black sheep

Social pariah

Freak

Loser

Outcast

I didn't wear what they wore

Or like the things they liked

I could have

I just chose not to

My own drum

Off beat

Dissonant

My first time?

Innocence

Attacked-

Not protected-

By things not taught

In the bible

Or in school books

My hobbies?

Depression manifesting

In impulses

Tending to wounds

I didn't understand

Real bandaids over bullet holes shit

How would others describe me?

Deep feelings

"Too sensitive"

Crazy bitch

I was left

A war prisoner

While they were getting

Scraped knees

From falling off bicycles

Into their fathers arms

Wounds tended

Boo boos kissed

What do I do for in my free time?

Seeking affection

Validation

from men

A real fucking cliche

A real fucking whore

A real fucking disgrace

Taking off her clothes

Taking pictures

Bending over

To the angle they wanted

Watching porn

Like that shit was on the mother fucking

SATs

Perfect score

My favorite food?

Hard pills to swallow

Heartbreaks

Incurable

Prescriptions can't heal

Fucked up DNA

Or are you wondering about the scars?

No those weren't in the pictures were they.

Unhealthy habits

Not cute like

Biting your nails

But vicious

Like if you dont text me back

Fast enough

I might be

Bleeding

On the bathroom foor

Next time you hear from me

So0000.

Second date?