How Can You Love Someone Else If...

I Promised to Love You

I've become good at saying what I don’t mean

But listen deeper and you can feel what I want to say

Distance and dejection would make you want to give up on me

If you did I would understand.

Love ending is just a matter of time anyway.

You see, somedays I can’t see past my own pain

I can’t see what you need so how could I possibly know what you want

Surely you know by now that my intentions and my actions won’t align

I need so much from you but I can say the words, "I need help."

I know I promised to love you.

That’s too much responsibility for someone like me.

I love the sight of your beauty, but I can’t speak life to its growth.

In my heart, you'd wilt and die.

My now is slipping through my fingers right now

How can I plan a future with you

I promised to love you more and more each day.

Yet, I give you less and less of me.

Some days I wonder why you haven’t walked away.

I should.

If you did I’d understand…

It would hurt, but I would understand.

I promised you love, but I can’t love you the way you want when you want me to.

I guess that’s a whole lot of nothing for something so great--

Precious and rare

Yes, you are precious and rare

I know I promised, I know

Still, I break my word with every word unspoken

Hell, even my eyes lie to you at dawn.

I don’t want to lie to you even I’m lying next to you.

Truth is, I can’t love you back

If I don’t know how to first love me.