Honesty

Promise of Honesty,

This is my message.

Please, do not belittle me.

Do not make me change my mind.

I know what it is I have to do.

But I know,

I am falling behind.

Promise of Honesty,

Please, do not leave.

I am doing my best,

What you taught me,

I did.

You don't have to say it,

Don't even watch.

I know I am failing,

It has become too much.

She awakes me in the night.

I want to shut her out.

Whatever she wants from me

Is already wearing down.

I have become to fall victim.

My breath seems quieter somehow.

I thought She promised hope,

but instead...I am caught in Her cycle.

She beats my chest.

She wants to make sure I cannot run.

And now,

Does she want you too?

Promise of Honesty?

Please,

Reply to me.

Tell me what I should do.

Get me out.

Are you still there?

No.

She took you, didn't She?

I am so sorry.

I should have protected you.

Now I am at Her command.