I walk into church, touch the holy water with my
Fingertips, make the sign of the cross on my
Forehead, and all I can think about is
I desperately concentrate on the red, flickering flame,
From the candle above my head.
I try to exorcise this temptation from my mind.
Damn you demon!
You look at me with those eyes, and to my great
Surprise I now realize I was kidding myself.
I thought I wasn’t tempted by your
Bare chest, that night, when all you wore was a towel,
And a wide smile.
I realize, I want, yes, I desire, to sleep on your bed, and
Awaken to two big glasses of wine, staring back at me
Full of secrets, that they
Will never spill.
I must have drank that wine last night, but now I am
Chasing it with horror.
It was just a fluke, surely, it couldn’t be true.
What will my boss think, what will Dan think?
Trixie—how can I explain to her that Chloe is also
A stripers’ name??
I walk out as fast as possible, to the unavoidable future.
An enigmatic future. A future with Lucifer?
Surely I must have broken some commandment;
The one that says if you are drunk, don’t fall asleep on
Surely my penance cannot involve a good shag!!
And what about Lucifer’s dad?
What if Trixie will soon have a brother or sister?
I was desperately rejected by Dan.
Did Lucifer take advantage of that?
Oh, no, I don’t love Lucy!!
I can’t stand the thought of Maze being Trixie’s auntie.
Oh, God, what do I do now?
Should I pray the Rosary?
Lucifer won’t get the best of me!
I leave the church and walk outside.
I sit on a bench, a Lady Bug flies up high.
How high did I go last night?
His bed was soft.
For a moment, I smiled in pure delight.
But then I thought, ‘I need to act aloof’
So, I put on a good how, and walked out
Lux will never be the same again.
It has become the den of lust.