His Glory Be
At home in my own bed now, hiding, covers over head;
Head swimming with the thoughts, of all things done and said;
The taste of yet another, still lingering on my lips;
The loneliness I feel, I’m drowning in abyss..
The feeling that I long for will never come like this;
There’s nothing that will fix, the sting of all amiss;
I know my road is wrong, been trying for a while;
To set the things at right, I’ve been neglecting all the while;
I try to kill the pain, it keeps coming back around;
I don’t know what to do, I feel like I am drowned;
Every time I think I’m better, yet again I fall;
Just start the cycle over, want to give up all;
I know He has a plan for me, but sometimes hard to see;
I just pray won’t be the death of me, before His glory be;
I don’t want to live in darkness, I want my joy to share;
With someone with the passion of all that life can bear;
I’m waiting for my soldier, the person by my side, strength, courage, faith, and love, to carry on in stride;
I know that God has plans for me, these things I can’t deny;
but as I walk through darkness these feelings cannot hide;
I know He knows my everything and that’s what I wish to give;
But my flesh so weak and tired, Sometimes I hate to live;
I want you to be present in my life and in my being;
But I feel so far away sometimes I don’t know how to give;
I want to be a light, give hope to those around me;
That they might see my fight, and so wander to the light;
So often though, my darkness consumes the sweetness, bright;
I crawl through pain and sadness until the morning light;
I don’t want these as my answers, I want a better way;
But every night this pain consumes me, and my demons have their way;
I know it won’t be always, I know this too shall pass, but In these moments hardness is all I see at task;
I know your light will come. I know you have a plan;
Please keep me in your safety and hold by the hand;
I don’t know if I can make it, I’m scared of who I am;
Please guide me in the darkness ‘cause I don’t know that I can
You know the road before me and there’s nothing I can plan;
What You have before me, though, I do not understand;
My faith will not be faltered, although at times seems grim;
The bitterness that comes, has sweetness on the rims;
At last I reach for you, Lord, my solace in my room, You hold me in your arms as a baby in the womb;
I know my choices show, as if I do not care, but You always know me better, than even I could dare;
You know the root of heartache, You know the road I bare, You know the demons well, that haunt me here and there;
I don’t know what the answer is, I don’t know when or where;
I just pray that You keep holding me through every taunt and tear…
my heart is weak with sorrow, that only I have caused;
My searching for my solace has only weight and snare;
How can I say I love You still, with all these sins to bare;
I know that You have taken them, and continue to each day;
But putting them back on You, still feels like hell to pay;
I know that I’m Your daughter and You love me anyway;
You won’t leave me nor forsake me, Your promises are true;
I just long for You to hold me, until I’m feeling new.
Please take these ties that bind me, and break the curse at hand;
Release me from this darkness, but Your will is my command;
I don’t really want to live now, as I fall in once again;
Please save me from this prison, this place that I call home….
Not everybody sees it, so much is left unknown;
Unless they’ve walked this walk as well, still even then, their own;
We all have our road to bare, and bare it too we shall;
There’s turmoil in the trudging, sweet mercy’s all we seek;
Exhausted from the fighting, I feel my mind grow weak;
I lay struggling in my bed now, my demons hard to tame;
Praying for the dawn of day now, that will not be the same.
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