Heartaches & Heartbreaks
Life Is Not Always What It Seems
Life is not always what it seems
It's nothing like my childhood dreams
A life filled with pain
It drives me insane
Heartaches & heartbreaks
Then something like magic
But really quite tragic
A love fills my heart
And tears me apart
Heartaches & heartbreaks
I want it so bad
It's driving me mad
Just want to feel love's strong embrace
Sweet, gentle kisses caressing my face
Heartaches & heartbreaks
My heart gets shattered
My dignity's not all that he battered
And into this strife
Comes another small life
Heartaches & heartbreaks
A dear, sweet, small child
So strong and so wild
My heart fills with joy
At the thought of this boy
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As my patience grew thin
A monster crept in
From my baby, he stole
That innocent soul
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Now there's a fight
With no sign of light
Life is not always what it seems
It's nothing like my childhood dreams.
I just uncovered this poem, buried in a file folder, tucked inside a file box from many years ago.
It was originally written in 1997. My son was six years old. He had been conceived by rape. Social Services had decided to go after my rapist for Child Support. He, in turn, filed for joint custody and visitation, which was granted.
While visiting his father, my son was molested. I wrote this poem while going through a court battle to have visitation rights revoked and charges of child endangerment laid against my rapist. Although visitation was revoked, charges were never filed.
About the Creator
Analise Dionn
This life began with trauma. Now married, with 2 adult children and raising a grandchild with FASD/PTSD/ADHD. Navigating this very personal journey of healing with ADHD, thriving after a lifetime of abuse... all through the grace of God.
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