HAPPINESS QUEST Part 1

Find the place within where light shines.

Find the peace you crave to know-Body, Mind and Soul.

This is my most important goal. It's more than wealth, fame ,image made to maintain. Chasing success-NOT MY GAME...

I want the happy vibe...CONSTANTLY to thrive inside.

I want thrill sensation to keep me awake... To feel alive

BY WHAT I DO, BY WHAT I SEE ...

My days shall be designed, UNDEFINED ; totally free and unrefined.

Give me my freedom...Let me be. I reject maintenance - objective. Tasks of domestic responsible chore. Trained in knowing how things `ought be done... Only speaks to me, as of boredom and chains of slaves -Unhappiness. NO, No way! I CAN NOT ACCEPT this as my fate!!

My inner - reflection compares to others. I FEEL shame and disgust with myself--- for I do nothing. -Follow no subscribed routine by which we've all , in some degree been programmed to...

Do certain things we MUST... to be worthy and an acceptable member of society! WELL I'm not . I don't wish to be: A member of society.

I want to be ME (Whoever or Whatever the hell that is supposed to be) In ALL I do. I know I'm not you! I can't follow suit, nor be one with the herd.

I am ME. whoever that is? Whatever that means? Answer never seems to ring clear. WHY would I choose to be born to earth? It makes no sense. Always yearning to return to soul form. Wishing I could go back in time, to recant my statement- Never mind what I said: No mission I'd choose to take. I'm not made for fulfilling purpose- Too weak to overcome adversity. The fact that people choose to is absurd to me.

ME - Who am I exactly? How did I manage to be, all of a sudden & swiftly approaching the age of 41? Why? How is it I still have no clue...what is it that I was born to do?

The one thing that always chimes through: As my truth. Whatever I do , I chose to be me. In whatever I decide to do, HAPPINESS is the feeling I seek.