God Damn I Want to Buy You Stuff
No turning back now.
God damn, I want you.
Now that I have seen you, I want you.
No turning back.
But wanting is not nice, wanting is an ugly spectacle.
Wanting is a big peach square,
a tooth in a pit,
and an ugly deckchair pinned beneath a body in clothes,
and the tide.
Wanting is a wrinkly strawberry.
Tiny wriggling things.
Worms in apples.
Wanting is a crumbly façade masking
a hundred rooms, a gate, and a lock.
The ashen brook that tumbles around it like a moat,
and all the monogamous ducks there laughing at me.
Wanting you is a taut cream shoulder,
the space between the rib-cage and the bicep,
a lifetime of work for a minute of living,
a lapping ocean on a sandy beach.
Now that I have seen you, with your perfect fingers clutching that coffee
Like it was passed down through generations,
I want you. Shit.
I want to buy you stuff. I want to demonstrate that I love you.
Or that I could. I want to prove that I could prove that I love you.
Does that make sense?
Have you ever seen someone across the room
and wanted to buy them stuff at first sight?
This could be an issue, since I have no money.
At any rate, here is your refill. Please come into my coffee shop again.
Every day, maybe. Or just a few times a week. I'm flexible.
In a sense, we're already meeting for coffee dates.
I mean, that is not inaccurate.
I hope that no one comes in to meet you.
I hope you keep reading your book there by the window and leave in a melancholy state.
Wouldn't that be great?
Do you like De La Soul? Turmeric tea? The way that leaves turn upside down before it rains?
God damn. I want you. I want to get to know you gently, steadily,
Day by day,
Until one morning we find ourselves knowing each other totally,
Like a leaf that not only knows it's about to rain,
but what that means.
About the author
I am a writer and musician living in Arizona. I write about weird specific emotions I feel. I didn't like high school. I eat out too much. I stand 5'11" in basketball shoes.
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