forget

i kissed a girl

slept in another man’s bed

because i thought

maybe then

my heart would

forget you.

it didn’t.

i still look for you

in every stranger’s eyes

hear your voice

in my dreams

and your fingers

burned holes

in my skin

nobody’s touch

can erase.

i live with

the remnants

of you:

the gum on my wall

the bracelet on my wrist

the hole in my heart

the darkness under my eyes.

i have ten lovers

but none of them

is you

so i have none

at all.

i put a gravestone

on your memory

that refuses to die

in my soul.

rest in chaos.

because i will never find

peace.