I dreamt of you again
Your hair was different,
Ringlets no longer falling like chains of spun gold
My itchy palms ached to wring it in my hands, To let fear and fury and fire work it into the shape it used to take
You were immovable as always, subconscious the most unstoppable force
You were no longer the gilded lily, reeking of the rot beneath the riches (Making the riches that much more enticing)
You were simple and pure and hiding nothing
I wanted to rip you from the roots
(I could not muster the courage)
I did not want what shine remained to be dulled by silt-stained hands, Cheapened
I had to take what little victories I had left,
Squirrel nighttime visitations away like a sordid secret thing Ex marks the spot
Nourishing, punishing, both in equal measure
You and the sun have that in common
Searing glances will not go unnoticed, nor unpunished
A new self was born upon your arrival, another upon your departure
Bloody and raw, I christen myself Ichoras and baptize in Narcissus' pool
Even a fish darts to the first bit of shine that punctures the darkness
I know myself too well now to feign ignorance of the hook
You may have strung the bait,
But I delivered it to you with open palms
And an exposed throat
Like a dog dropping the chain at its master's feet
Silver, and cold.
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