Food
I've been struggling with food for as long as I can remember. I lose weight and gain it back all the time. Sometimes I starve myself on purpose or overeat if I haven't eaten in a long time. I'm trying to build a healthy relationship with food, but it's hard.
I often starve myself just to make myself feel pretty.
I avoid eating the food I love, and often I drown in self-pity.
I count calories, avoid junk food and don't eat after six.
I don't drink soft drinks and don't eat burgers and chips.
Whenever I eat sweets, I blame myself, and I get mad.
But I still eat chocolate and cookies whenever I feel sad.
I either overeat or don't eat a thing for the entire day.
I lose weight when I'm at home and gain it back when I'm away.
I never thought I was overweight, but my mum told me that I was.
I have a horrible relationship with food; I wish I had been diagnosed.
I stay in bed and sleep all day to avoid thinking about food.
Whenever I am tired and starving, I'm in an awful mood.
I have big thighs, stretch marks, huge hips.
My legs are short, my eyes are big, and so are my lips.
I don't know what I like about myself, but I do know what I don't.
I used to love myself and think I was pretty, but now I guess I am not.
I'm not a model and don't have abs, and I'm not skinny.
I don't wear skirts or dresses, especially if they're mini.
I wear jeans and hoodies that are twice my size.
When I go out, my friends, not me, always get with pretty guys.
The soul is more important than what you see on the outside.
I should love myself for being me, and trust me, I have tried.
It's hard to love yourself when you only see what others see.
I hope one day I will love my body and myself for being me.
I'm sorry if you can relate and sorry if you feel the same.
I'm sorry if you don't understand and think I sound lame.
There are so many pretty souls out there that people do not see.
I hope one day you'll love yourself, and I will learn how to love me.
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