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5.5
Sounds like a length you’d run for charity.
But I can’t move forward without clarity.
I thought we could’ve made it that far
Instead, I’m pulling my sleeve past that scar
Because I couldn’t run this alone
While you were off with the unknown
I swear, I tried my fucking hardest
At a race that you purposely missed
5.5
I’m barely alive
You were a spectator at the end
Cheering while I suffered, crawling past the bend
You felt peace while you watched me fade
That course was too brutal to end up betrayed
Its obstacles broke me, left me bloody and bruised
And everyone but me could tell I was abused.
I guess that left hook to the face left me confused….
5.5
I’m barely alive
How do I do this alone
When there’s no one that feels like home
Running wasn’t easy, but running away is
Can I please forget…. I’m his, I’m his, I’m his.
And he most certainly isn’t mine
So, I’ll sit here with my glass of wine
And try hopelessly to forget the last 5.5
And that weekend, the six-hour drive.
when you swore, we were for a lifetime.
But then you said it to her, same place, same lines.
5.5
And I’m still barely alive.
The way you said “not now” when I took that test.
And how it made my worst mistake easier to digest
Not a day goes by where it’s not a regret
But I agreed, so is this me paying back my debt?
She would’ve had my eyes, and hopefully your hair.
I’m relieved she won’t have your inability to care.
Deep down I know there is no cure,
And I’d never admit it, but I’d sacrifice you to save her.
Because it killed me every day while you forgot in minutes.
The pain that caused pushed me past my limits.
I fell for every empty promise you gave of our future,
when you would’ve picked any other girl, even before you knew her.
But for me, it’s been only you…. for 5.5
With my heart clawed out of my body, how do I survive?
5.5
I’m barely alive
That track was too rough
I still break down when I see your stuff.
A future without you in it is too painful to comprehend,
And my heart is too broken to mend.
There’s pain, there’s heart break, and then there’s this.
Now I can only remember happiness when I reminisce.
It took me this long to realize the insincerity in your voice
I guess for you, “I love you” got to be a choice.
5.5.
I’m barely alive
I guess I should be proud that I gave it my all
But embarrassed how my hands shake when someone says…. Your name.
5.5
Am I alive?
It seems too long to be a joke or a game.
I tried so hard and was rewarded with shame
But you’re so smart and you played it so well
Like you wanted me to overthink, analyze and dwell.
Thinking back, I can see the smirk and glimmer in your eye
And how it grew bigger the harder you made me cry.
5.5.
I’m barely alive.
Two thousand and seven days
How could you not stay?
Forty-eight thousand, one hundred and eighty hours
But last valentine’s day you still got me flowers
Before you left to go see her
Two million, eight hundred ninety thousand and 800 minutes
The pain only lets me remember pleasant snippets
5.5
I’m barely fucking alive.
I can’t figure out what was true and what were lies.
Why did you do it, what was your goal?
Throw in the dirt, I’m too deep in this hole.
Anyone can fall out of love, but this was pure evil.
How could heart break be this lethal?
5.5
This pain isn’t something you get through
5.5
I’m still praying I survive you.
About the Creator
Dana Hartnett
Just writing to get out all the feels trapped in my head. check out the Etsy shop I made with my best friend. we sell handmade crystal jewelry and crystal candles. keycostudio.etsy.com
its all gonna be okay, love ya.
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Comments (5)
Wow Dana, this was heartbreaking and soul wrenching!! It was relatable and so well articulated! You really told the tale through out the poem and it gave such impact to the overall feel of it!
Wow, this is like a song...no, like slam poetry. Absolutely stunning rhyming work, rhythm, and narrative all the way through. "She would’ve had my eyes, and hopefully your hair. I’m relieved she won’t have your inability to care. Deep down I know there is no cure, And I’d never admit it, but I’d sacrifice you to save her." Damn. For me, this section (that whole stanza, really) captures the emotion at the heart of this piece. Breathtakingly tragic. I am honestly beyond words. Well done on this.
So beautifully sad 💔
Hey, I just want to let you know I've shared this poem in my recent story: https://vocal.media/poets/poppy-s-preferences-pt3
Wow, there is so much hurt and heartbreak in this poem but also incredible talent. Well done, another great read