Impossible to tell now, what was choice,
action, re-reaction. The colours mix:
your thinking, my own. Obedience squeezed
from dried-up bottle holes of school acrylics.
Onto words then, wondering if real moles
blackened this book, each page feeling wasted
to thoughts in inattentive scribble hand.
Got that from your father, she insisted.
The cure for shyness was lemon collars
beneath velvet blazers, and those red shoes
we saw in films sometimes but couldn’t buy
then. You don’t want weird trainers, do you?
Even now as an ally, unable
to ally myself. Once some flags are raised
they can’t be hidden when the wind’s rage falls.
So wear my mind in solid t-shirt greys,
a way to quiet the spectrum of strange
manners that may put history in place,
puzzle its bits until it no longer
looks like the picture on the box. Just plays
itself. Lines in paint and felt tip, or spelled,
or adjectives where colour doesn’t fit.
Bound with a thick enough elastic strap
there’s room in the notebook for all of it.
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