Finding Brown in Rainbows
A journey of discovering pride in being brown and gay
Brown choose me
before I had a say
in who I wanted to be
defining my destiny.
like rusk dipped in chai
it soaked me in culture
which made me abide
by suffocating norms.
I was ashamed of my melanin
it wasn't beautiful
uncomfortable in my own skin
I struggled.
trying to break free
I sprinted away
trying to be me
I chased the rainbow.
its colors danced
like woodland fairies
on white skin, lightly tanned
by the happiness of the sun.
on mine, the rainbow dulled
taken over by blemished brown
the joyful dance lulled
all the happiness was gone.
why was it so
I wanted to know
when will my skin glow
with the colors of the rainbow?
could it be that being gay
just didn't mix with brown
was I just meant to stay
broken between my two selves?
maybe the separation was made
by my perception of them
for the rainbow brought me pride
but battered brown I shunned.
if only I could learn
to love the skin I am in
I could then burn
the hatred within.
once I can be proud
of all the beautiful brown in me
then the rainbow will be loud
as it radiates off the brown.
About the Creator
Pragadish Kalaivanan
I am an Indian poet trying to navigate life. My work is influenced by experiences of growing up in a conformative society and the path that has lead me to become the person I am today. My writing is intended to take you on a journey.
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