Father

My grandma had a stroke about a month ago

I don't know how she is

My stepmom died about a week ago

I'm conflicted in my feelings

Not about her and her death

I'm happy that she's dead

It's that my grandma was my dad's mom

And my stepmom was his wife

And I'm happy when I imagine how he must be suffering

I always wanted him to suffer, and now I imagine him suffering alone

It feels good to think about his sadness

I bask in the joy of his suffering

I hope he hurts forever

I hate him