Fall wasn't over
'an event or period marking a turning point in a course of action or state of affairs.'
You are telling me not to worry
In your sweet melodic voice, your hair falls and covers your eyes
I am mesmerized, because no one has looked at me the way you have
No one has loved me the way you have
As you press your thumbs into my forearm
Leave purple, blue and yellow I think of fall
I think of Thanksgiving, we were smiling then
You are much older than me, and that must mean something
I think of family friends, warm smiles and awkward nods
I act as if I know the people here, like they have not led lives I haven't
The thing about you is you do not care
About me, or my comfort
The thing about you is when you see my forearm
Purple, blue and yellow, you see the way I submit to you
You feel guilt too, not enough to stop, just enough to cry and dig harder
To have pieces of me in your fingernails and act like I gave them to you willingly
Hold me anyway, is the only thing I think as you let my arm go
Still I cower, my body knows more than my brain after all
It's a Wednesday in December when your touch makes me feel nauseous
It's a Tuesday in April when I pack up and leave
I was taught to stay uncomfortable for people who love me
Because they are the only ones who ever will again
About the Creator
Nightshade
Young Queer Writer, who loves film, fiction and poetry.
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