Faded Pictographs

memories of a faded childhood

faces on the wall that aren’t even around anymore

moments that i can never salvage again

i regret taking my life for granted

memories of a faded adolescence

the girls in the hallway that i really had feelings for

now, I’ll never get to tell them how i feel

that chance is gone with the wind

i no longer exist anymore

memories of a faded family that wasn’t picture perfect

i could have done something to save them, but

i couldn’t even save myself,

so i was no better than them

memories of a faded adulthood

i was so close to being on my way

to extraordinary things in life,

i was blessed

i would’ve popped off with my books and everything

i would’ve gotten all the adoration and acceptance

that i always sought out

now i can never get it,

it’s too late to apologize for this mistake

i regret claiming my life, i should have

listened to my friends when they

were telling me not to do this

i regret taking my life, i should have gotten closer to Chelsey

i regret taking my life, i should’ve went back to the damn therapist

i regret taking my life, i should have hit that blunt again

why did i have to do this to myself

memories of human intimacy

i was capable of giving some out again

i should have been more receptive

i should have smiled more,

i should have never talked so much crap to people

i should have listened to my elders,

i never did anyway

i was a problem child with a head

stronger than some cast iron

no wonder that belt kept getting

brought down upon my behind

i should have never went through with it

it’s all a distant memory,

everything is fading

ahem, JADED

my existence has faded