i am staring into the abyss
the anxiety peels at my flesh
and i am spinning in circles directionless
i don’t even know where i’m at
yet, i stand motionless with a smile plastered on my face
it doesn’t quite reach my eyes but its enough to make you think i’m alright
that’s enough for me
you don’t need to know i live in turmoil internally
it’s none of your business
and i don’t want it to be
you never ask me
what is the point?
i don’t even know if i have words
well, i have words but i never know what they’re actually saying or if they even explain what is going on
i am drowning under the pressure
the pressure of being someone i’m not
and the pressure of being someone i am
it’s suffocating
just breathe
it’ll be ok they say
they’ll give me an inspirational quote or even better a bible verse that is so far out of reach it barely makes sense
but “it’s ok, things are looking up.”
then i will be left alone to navigate the path of unrighteousness myself.
it’s ok you are not ok.
for now, i’ll just drown under the pressure
the pressure of being someone i’m not
and the pressure of being someone i am
About the Creator
Canaan Trice
Hi, my name is Canaan. I am just a girl who loves to write about the life happening around me and within me. I hope you enjoy.
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