Dot for Dot

Find riddles in my speech

for in there lies

something

that you must have.

Color is one

vibrating

in a ray

it conjures one

and then another

compiling, separating, mixing

there lies it

dot for dot

dribble down the canvas

mixing in the unknown

at an expected rate.

You find you’re looking at something that you thought was only paint

but now it has become something more

in these colors, you see a heart

red of course

with much else to mix

purple, blue, green

slithering down in slides

seeping into its pores

this heart is explosive

it pops

from the 2D surface, you once thought it could only be contained

in this popping

you see

more than you thought you ever would

from blank to colors

then lines

now a heart

a meaning

a symbol

something you are now going to connect to others as you had to do to make that thing

you had to connect everything together to make that one thing which can connect to all the others to make one thing

connecting, making, merging, creating, compiling

this is the rhythm our heart beats

the way our breath goes in and out

we take in

everything

and call it

its own.

Yet really it’s just one step before the next

and once upon that next, it’s one step before the next.

I don’t know how many shades there are

for when i have one and mix it with another

i will be the mixing of that next with the original

it can go as far as i can see

yet it can continue

and from the tools we have

it would tell me that there is more

than even i know.

But how do we know what we do not see?

how do we know what we do not experience?

faith in the things that align with our experience that can travel farther than we

for if we are a line that has an endpoint

if you could make such a line bend

move as we move

then surely as it passes and transcends through our endpoint

we will assume it to be true for those things as well

there is of course no guarantee

but a probability that we will hold and assume

for there is nothing else we can simply do

except to say,

that the endpoint is the end and everything else is make-believe

that the things we do not experience are just rules and laws and parts of the imagination with no actual basis in reality other than those very things we conjure them from.

but this must inherently be flawed

since we can know quite well

the difference in things that we do not see

for they will act upon us, regardless of whether we see

you can switch the air that i breathe from oxygen to carbon monoxide

you change the experienceless situation

into one that results in the end of my life

yet i could never tell

for i shall not smell, i shall not see, i shall not hear, i will not taste and i will not feel any difference except for my lungs unable to breath

therefore these rules are even more credible than we first thought to be. for we can find experience that tells us they know more than we.

Is this a crime?

i do not know

is this sad? maybe pathetic?

you could say

these tools protect us

as we will protect them

sometimes

even more than ourselves

we will protect them with our lives for they can live longer than us

we will give them more than just ourselves because they are more than ourselves

they enable us into becoming greater things than we can be

and therefore, with them, we are greater than we were before

and so the utility

in that they put into us

is more than another may put into us

and so as the individual i am, i may just see these things and declare that it is more important than them

that an object is more valuable than a life

that something which is unconscious and unfeeling of this universe

with no actual care

can be of more value

and deserve more protection

then something of similar experience

and experiencer

than I.

So i shall do what i want

and i shall do what i can

to protect the things that enable me

if it so be that a human being is less

then so be it.

this is a rather new phenomenon since humans for so long have been the most capable thing

but isn’t it strange now that we must decide

for we are now challenged to decide between ourselves

and me

and to make the decision easier it is rather phased

as them and me

because apart i can care less for them

i can resort to more rational thought

and withdraw myself from the feeling and understanding that they are to me as i am to them

ignorance is strength

i need not be stupid, for that will come with its own plethora of problems, but a need to withdraw from feeling and understanding that i am in no right to actually pick something other than them

if i can extract myself from that very obvious phenomenon

then i am capable of endless destruction in the name of i

i shall do as i want

for i

from this

has become greater than you

since you are without this

i am god

i am king.

What are we to do when we simply have these technologies

that allows for everything

now it is partial

maybe forever it shall be but eventually, there may come a time

where pleasures and happiness of all sorts

and purpose

will be satisfied

not a from an us

but from a godlike me

what are we to do then?

could we do this all so individually as to allow the other

to not be bothered

i suppose it is possible

i suppose we are headed that way

with automation and capabilities allowing us to not have to dedicate our lives for something so necessary as food, water, shelter

but there are more complex ladders of consciousness and that it what i question

will companionship also be automated?

will compassion

the desire for love

to receive and give

will adventure

purpose

direction

can those be fulfilled in a more involving imaginary tale?

virtual reality says so

can we find a way so that the goggles never need to come off?

and if so

again

the question remains

is that what we want?

is it that we want that for it is possible

for it is absolute

for it would create

a sustainable way for all

without needing to extract from the bottom to allow for the top

some will declare it is not real

it is wrong

it is artificial

and as much as i agree

i must also question

what is not to be labeled artificial?

what is not a construct of our own demise?

everything you experience is in your head. Does that mean to say it is not real?

how foolish you must be

to believe that you are real because it feels natural

don’t you see that natural is just artificial over time?

If the feeling i get from another human’s touch can be as genuine and true without the need for a human touch then maybe i need not to bash this world view

maybe i can learn to accept it

not even for myself

but for us all

because i myself

as me

believe that i would be okay

but i ride on the backs of so many fallen

the privilege and power i have obtained

i cannot even imagine

the pain and suffering so many must go through

without these things that i ride upon

but that too is such an injustice

as the quote may go

“rich people are bothered by little, pointless things. So why can’t poor people as well?”

to think of them as anything other than yourself is to simplify something into

a group, a subhuman, an other

at which is less complex

and less knowing than yourself

that is ignorant

for simplicity is rarely correct when looking at the development and worldview and the understanding of conscious behavior from a human psyche.

Objectivity is never that which damns us

it is more that we damn ourselves when we feel we must

and we are undamned when we feel that we must not be damned

so to look upon the world and say it is such an injustice is to really not know

is to really make yourself ignorant of the possibility of you, with all your privilege, may suffer more at your own hands than someone without

you don’t know

so don’t tell yourself you do.

So now we circle around and round

around a question, i have no answer for

i don’t know i suppose

maybe a choice is best

nothing needs to necessarily to be absolute

maybe you can set up your cubical

call it reality

put on those goggles

maybe you don’t need to

maybe you can do it for a few years and stop

or the other way

maybe you need a program which enables you to understand the value of one or the other

so that neither is fully lost

maybe

freedom does seem to be the easiest route

both fair and equal

allowing the individual to choose what they desire

but again

artificial we all are

to allow real choices

that’s hard to do

maybe that’s okay

maybe we don’t look for real

maybe we need to accept that real and natural is only artificial over time

maybe we just need to allow the options

and let them co-exist without any definitive direction other than the one we ourselves point

without any guilt or pity

any push or pull

other than the ones we already do

for that will naturally happen

we allow total freedom to be

which of course is scary

because if i or someone chooses to do something that inflicts upon another than i am directly infringing on their ability to choose

maybe that too is the way it should go

because like we said

nothing is natural

so maybe the push and pull

from others who decide that their will is to be put and thrust upon others is also as natural a course as someone who finds that to be barbaric

simply picking different sides of a coin

and calling it a completely new thing

so in its full entirety

we are all doing the very thing that i am saying for us to do

we are already living in this way

the exception of course is that we do not have the total emersion

we do not have the goggles that you can keep on for your entire 85 years of life

but then again

maybe we do

we do not have that technology

of course

but in ways we have because we are the guides of ourselves

and we can put ourselves in games physically and within us

we can create these stories for ourselves and live them our entire life

never needing to not

because that story is absolute

and perfect

so i suppose in this i don’t know

i worked to a current moment that is right now

a point which we are all doing at this very moment.

Do you see it?

do you see the beauty in it?

i do

but not

as well as i could

i guess because i too am my story

or i to am out of it and into another

if there is anything we are

we are fictional characters

as both the experiencer and the experience

we are the main character of a fictional novel that we are writing as we also experience it

going about our days

rewriting

writing over

unwriting

looping and looping

that is reality

i hope you are enjoying yours

i am enjoying mine

mostly

but i think that’s also the point

at least for me

that’s a story I’d like to write

total joy

seems a bit much

whatever your story may be

i will push and pull

not all the time

maybe never for you

maybe you never for me

but as we be we will pull and push

turn and twist

colliding and avoiding

mixing and mashing

all our little points coming together to make one big point

just as colors

come together

multiplying and bending into lines and shapes

together

create a heart

wonderful and red

it is so much more

will explode out of the canvas that we start at

and that will be us

hopefully

there’s many things to draw

maybe we will draw something else

i don’t know

We will just have to see.