Dismantled Perhaps’
The sounds of the broom’s mouth
Old and choking with dust rise from
The ground as they’d been what hot air is
Sometimes (before all this)
Before I was what I am the
World was what is now not -
Robbed by our own (can you believe it?)
Both of us. Like an argument lost
By the argumentative, I wait for
Night each night. And night always comes.
I am made of a terrible amount of
Dismantled perhaps’. I contradict even
My belief in my own contradictions. Before
I was what I am I feared the madness with
Which I loved. It only took a lifetime for
Me to realize that I must love madly, for
Love maddened by its madness’ intensity
Is the only love I know to be real — the heart,
Torn at the seams burns burns burns like money.
I burn.
Everything in me is made of water -salt
Water taken from the primordial sea. I rise
With all my waves -flooding buildings, houses,
Eyes, ears, lungs, spleens, roads,
Valleys — treacherous and beautiful. Before
I was what I am the Moon was but another
Insignificant thing. Now, vigilant, both of us,
Of earth’s intricacy. Both of us. Like forgiveness
Lost by the one who forgives, I welcome
Bitterness. And I smear a little honey on the places
Where it settles. I am made of a terrible amount
Of dismantled parting of ways. I don’t run from them.
They’re only little children. Before
I was what I am I feared the madness with
Which I grieved. It only took the ripping Of my chest for
me to realize that I must Grieve madly, for
Grief maddened by its own intensity
Is the only love I know to be real — life,
Torn at the seams burns burns burns like money.
I burn.
Sometimes,
You can even hear me sing.
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"Dismantled Perhaps" (2024) by Meri Utkovska, from her upcoming book FRACTURED PERCEPTIONS
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Meri Utkovska
I am a writer who creates short movies based on poetry.
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