Disloyal

to stay loyal to him, i signed a contract

he goes missing for days with no contact

now i have committed several crimes

by cheating on him multiple times

but i do not mean any harm

i am forced to find comfort in other’s arms

where he disappears to, is unknown

and i just hate being alone

he does not realise the effect

because he finds pleasure in the neglect

i wait hours for a reply, though i can see he is online

he puts everyone else’s needs in front of mine

i know cheating is a choice, honestly

but i get frustrated on the things he promised me

a web of lies, he sold me a dream

currently he is chasing after a teen

he does not know that i know

i hate that i cannot let him go

we are not forced to stay together

but i cannot imagine finding someone better

most of you would be certain

that i am just a bad person

but we are just as bad as each other

maybe it is time to end this suffer?