Disconnected
I've always had difficulty with being present in the moment
I’m disconnected from this world
I see my body but my mind is somewhere else
I repressed everything because I’ve been told I feel too much
I cry too much
And I hurt too much
Spent so long hiding these emotions that I wasn’t allowed to show
Everyone saw me as the happy kid
But happy was the only emotion i showed
All these built up feelings in my body got the best of me
It was what ultimately broke me
So caught up in pleasing my parents
I had no idea of regulating these powerful feelings
Now I’ve been getting better at it
It’s tough but I know I can do it
I wish I wasn’t like this
I wish I was able to embrace these emotions when I was younger without feeling as if I was burden
I still feel too much
I still cry too much
And I still hurt too much
And I’m okay with that
I’m learning to cope
And although I feel these things so intensely
I won’t bury them away for another day
It’s time I learn that these feelings are okay
-a.poems
About the Creator
Arthy
Hi, Thanks for reading my writing! ig: axrthy
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