Differ
To Be A Depression Anxious Gay
Differ
January 22, 2011
I find it hard to say,
Just how I feel.
I’m told it should be easy,
But the words just
Don’t exist, it seems.
That I must
Have something wrong
With me
Is the only
Explanation.
Why can’t it be
That I’m different
In a different way?
Different,
To say the least,
Just a different beast.
There’s a new feeling,
Sometimes,
I gain this sense of,
This having happened before,
No, not déjà vu.
It’s more of a memory,
Long forgotten,
That I gain once more.
It flutters back
And I shudder.
Why can’t I differ
Differently?
Why must this be negative?
We’re all animals,
For better or worse
Our instincts show.
Fearsome beasts
To be reckoned with
Are some.
Others, soft
And kind.
Can I know the
Difference?
Can I see the
Truth?
May I, please?
To feel so awkward
Is to feel alienated.
No one seems to recognize.
No one shows concern
About me, it’s all just
Towards the disease.
A disease where I
Wish to be deceased.
Everything would
Be better,
Be easier.
But no, this is not the way.
Different in such a different way
Is unacceptable.
Being different besides the norm,
Simply cannot be.
About the Creator
Thor Grey (G. Steven Moore)
Since 1991, this compassionate writer has grown through much adversity in life. One day it will culminate on his final day on Earth, but until then, we learn something new every day and we all have something to offer to others as well.
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