Desperately

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By Rowan Finley Published 2 years ago • Updated 2 years ago • 1 min read

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I looked great on paper,

so you didn’t say no.

Well, I hope he makes you happy,

because I sure damn couldn’t.

Why would I ever try so hard,

when it was all so useless?

Now, I just have the most difficult time,

with even the simplest of things.

Then, I feel shame,

embarrassment,

and anger chasing my heels.

One day, I’ll be better enough,

good enough,

more than enough.

One day, I won’t remember any of it and I’ll wake up brainwashed,

but in a good way…

I’m thankful that Jesus is in the feet-washing business and in the mind-washing business.

I sure could use both.

Father. Academic Advisor. Musician. Writer. My real name is Jesse Balogh.

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