Delivered not considered

The message said delivered at like twenty to three am

I didn't expect it to go through, but that's just me- again

I was embarrassed coz I thought it would float blue like normal

But no, it got delivered- and since l've been in turmoil

Coz it's probably another black mark against my name

This whole year of 2024 l've been insane

I really must have blown it for your wrath

I didn't think I'd ever be privy to the perceived lack of empath-y

Your coldness like frostbite- ice ice baby

I think I was in denial for a while coz I kept thinking maybe

You would call and say sorry or maybe hey

But it's been too long now, what would you say?

Well what if we made a pact to not talking about the end

And just focused on what we have been up to instead?

Honestly, I think I've figured the whole dynamic out

And trust me I know what you're about

And it's okay because I have no doubt

That your actions

And my reactions

Were done in fright mode (me)

And you in flight- bang off you go you see

Delivered not considered

I want to live life- non Je regrette rein- no regrets

And that's why I'm hedging all my bets

So that one day when we are both old and senile

We look back on it with a smile

Instead of feeling sad Or a bit mad

That the friendship we made

Whatever that means, was paid

With fondness and respect

Instead of doubt and suspect