Deflect

I don't like what I'm hearing, let's not play this by

Ear,

How do I face my emotions once they're mixed heavily

With fear?

How long have I been here? It's not suppose to end

Here,

The darker side of my reflection was never supposed to have been

Clear.

The awareness I raised, versus the standards I

Lowered,

If I'm always looking back how will I know when I'm moving

Forward?

You left me no option, so I chose not to be

Fair,

Many have toyed with my reserved heart, but you'll never play with the

Spare.

I can escape this triangle remembering the corners that I

Squared,

Is it too inhuman to admit that I needed to be

Repaired?

My motives remain unrelatable, due to the space I've

Created,

Do I "pump up this volume" even though I know you'll try to

Deflate it?

Even higher to new heights, do I have permission to rest up

Here?

Perhaps I'll understand "Pillow Talk" when I finally rest my

Ear.

Am I sheltered or just not accustomed to such

Luxury?

A kiss at a questionable expense, even though the hugs were

Free.