Dear God . . . I'm sorry

Dear God:

I’m sorry – I ignored the angel you sent my way. It was a test, and I failed. Dirty, disheveled, your messenger approached me. Distracted, dismissive, I rejected him without hesitation.

I’m sorry – I didn’t even look him in the face. I sat in my car, engrossed in my phone. Quiet, shy, he asked if I had any extra change. Annoyed, impolite, I mumbled a lie, saying I had nothing.

I’m sorry – I watched him return to the storefront, alone. He sat on the sidewalk, head bowed. Hurrying, scurrying, people ignored him. Watching, waiting, I felt the first stirrings of conviction.

I’m sorry – I call myself a Christian. Yet I was anything but charitable. Standing, stretching, the man looked around, at everything, at nothing. Selfish, stupid, I drove away like a coward.

I’m sorry – I wasn’t brave enough to go back. Too ashamed to face him, too scared to face the truth. Gnawing, nagging, the realization of his true nature hit me. Sickened, saddened, I could only repent in silence.

I’m sorry – I never saw him again. Never got the chance to make it right. Did you call him back to heaven? Or does he still wander around in disguise?

I’m sorry – I know I don’t deserve to ask but would you please tell him something for me?

Tell him – I’m sorry I didn’t spare the change, spare the time, to help spare his earthly life.

Tell him – I wish I could go back to that day and do it over. Do it right.

Tell him – I have learned, I have grown, and I am committed to being a better human.

Tell him – I don’t know him. But I love him.

Humbly yours,

Heather

"Do not forget to entertain strangers, for by so doing some have unwittingly entertained angels." (Hebrews 13:2)